Just waiting..

I'm just waiting. Waiting is all I can do. I try to stay positive, try to think clear, but with every day that goes by it get's harder and harder. My dad suggested that he'd rent a bigger apartment and we could move in there. Him and me. But how would it be possible for me to live with someone who is drunk everyday? Just staying with him for a few months make me go insane. Shit..

And now I'm the one who can't be trusted? 

My heart is aching. Long for spreading my wings and just disappear. Away from him, away from her. All of them. I wouldn't mind being alone, just for a week or two.

To find myself. To miss again